11-7-06
I am a genius. I am wonderful. I am talented. God created a beautiful thing when he created me. He gave me so much talent, so many gifts, and I thank him for each and every one of them. I have to change. The best thing I have done recently is that when I start to play Minesweeper or I think I’m going to sit there and play it endlessly, I get up and go journal. Even if it’s for a short time. Do you really think there’s anything to “The Secret?” I guess I’ll find out. Maybe it’s just a way for the filmmakers to get rich. But I don’t think it could be just that. Not and have those successful people who think the same way endorse it. All I know is what I’m doing, what I’ve been doing isn’t getting me where I want to be so I have to change what I’m doing. I started to do a vision board a while ago. Or the box I put stuff in and I stopped doing it. Why? Because I thought it was stupid or it wouldn’t work? But visualization works! I think that’s a proven theory. So I should do it. And I have this recurring thought of setting up a web site and I think I should do that. Just set it up. Reserve the domain name. Gitter done! These recurring thoughts are probably God’s way of telling me to do something and I ignore HIM. So I have no one to blame for my lack of “success” except myself. But don’t I have a lot of what I envisioned for myself? A home. A family. Security. Not having to work. Those were old, maybe even sub-conscious dreams but they are reality now. And I haven’t really had the dream of serious publishing success until fairly recently. So I can’t say it’s less than what it is. I may be feeding myself and the universe negative self-talk cancelling out my good intentions. So I have to stop doing that. It’s only 8:37 but it feels like it could be 10:30 or something. I am a genius. God gave me talent. I have to let my light shine and be who I am. I have to be more of what God created me to be.
Goal – bestselling author
Goal – financial self-sufficiency
Goal – ability to financially, physically, and emotionally take care of family members when needed
Goal – better health and physical fitness
Goal – better use of wit, tongue and intelligence
Thanks you Jesus, God. Amen.
