5-29-06:
I will do just about anything to avoid journaling. I think it’s a time stealer. But I waste so much time on so many other things why not this. If it gives me any insight or creative stimulous that’s certainly a plus. Besides, it’s raining and the cable is out. HAHA. God saved me printing out my ms. today. That file I lost HE reminded me was on my back up disc. So those mss are ready to mail and I hope he blesses them on their way. I am sure tired of sitting in front of that computer. I wonder if W is opening tomorrow. I hardly ever get to open with her. It’s like a non-stop running gag when we’re both there. I enjoy A, too. She’s pretty easy to get along with and she laughs a lot. Let’s analyze everyone. N is sweet but she seems to have a lot of family issues that affect her. T is a good guy and he has a lot of enthusiasm and a good heart. K is sort of quiet and serious, but she’s a hard worker and likes to do things well. P talks too much. Period. Why does she think people are interested in her life? They’re not. I guess she has no one to talk to otherwise. So she blabs a lot at work. B-O-R-I-N-G. D is sweet but oh so sensitive. I don’t interact much with her. My sarcastic comments hurt her feelings and she doesn’t get me at all. So it’s best to keep quiet around her. C. I hardly ever see. His head is not on his work when he’s at Starbucks. He’s a horrible closer. T is something else. So funny, smart and sweet. Well-traveled. Loves to have a good time. She’s respectful and responsible. A good shift. J doesn’t get me either. She’s moody. I don’t interact much with her. She’s really fast on the bar, thought. T is sweet and a hard worker. I like her. T—not crazy about her. Not sure why. There’s a limit to how much you can tease her. She talks too much when she should be working. A is just so odd. She’s sweet-natured but she’s so slow. She frustrates me. Have I left out anyone? W reminds me of someone else I used to know. Someone who had no boundaries. Who spouted every thought that came into their head. But I can’t think who it was. Someone who worked at Starbucks? I think it stopped raining. Should I cancel on S, I wonder? I am so tired of her always changing plans on me. Is she really that busy and popular? Maybe she is. She never seems to be at home. I don’t know why I enjoy her company. Maybe I’m just a sucker.
Sun. 6-4-06?:
I’m up early but not early enough to make journaling the first thing I do. Made a cup of tea. B had TV on. I checked e-mail only for S e-mail. Update on B. Messages are there for all of us from God. Sometimes we just need some help tuning in the station. I should probably talk to T about writing the DM about a pay increase. Maybe I should address it to him and cc it to the DM. I think I’ll take the dogs for a bike ride before work. I wonder why J’s web site was so hard to find. Could it have been any more obscure? Maybe since I have 3 days off in a row after today I’ll devote one of them to sending out more queries just so I don’t lose my momentum. There’s a cardinal in the tree out there. I wonder if I have another table cloth to put on this table. B spilled coffee all over this one. Not that it wasn’t stained already. It’s quite peaceful out here. I hear birds chirping and traffic noise. The distant hum of the A/C. Squirrels chattering. B said Maggie killed a squirrel yesterday. I really feel like taking dogs for a bike ride. I know why I sort of resist journaling. It’s inactive SITTING and it feels as if there’s no real result from it. Whether it may be helping me or not. Who can tell. I am so lucky. I wish I could have got mascara and the Lancome free gift.
