1-31-06: I think what might be reasonable is to suspend all Spider Solitaire play until I’ve done my 3 pages of journaling each day. Let’s face it. Spider Solitaire is a colossal waste of my valuable time. And while the morning pages may have a questionable value, it’s less questionable…
11-2-05: Okay – “romance” for men. Let’s think about this. Authors who are making it have an unusual idea or an unusual twist. Who’s doing love story type stuff from a man’s POV? Romances are written primarily from a female POV. For a primarily female readership. Why not put the…
12-2-04: I am so annoyed. B went to hospital at 11 a.m. for a kidney stone procedure that was scheduled for 12:45. It’s 5:45 and he’s in the O.R. The machine broke. At 3 p.m. they’d just taken him into pre-op! Is this stupid or what? I am so disgusted. …
8-16-04 I can’t believe how awesome God is. I walk through the Vineyards and marvel at the beauty He’s created. The water, the sky, the trees and flowers. Spider web strings dangling with a single leaf caught at the end. I don’t know how anyone can be in this world…
4-27-04: I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I seem to have no gumption. I took a nap but seem to have no energy and no interest in doing much of anything. Maybe I shouldn’t have pursued M’s invite to dinner. But I had going out all planned! I was…
2-22-04: I’ll admit I’m confused. I don’t like to admit to confusion. No one does. Should I continue going to church professing to believe in an establishment, a religion, I don’t 100% believe in? I feel very hypocritical doing that, even though I went to Catholic church almost my whole…
1-19-04: I think we overestimate how much people care…about anything. Like if that girl at Coldstone was working drunk and C knew and did nothing—maybe he just doesn’t care how that business is represented. It’s not his store. He just works for the owners. Maybe he doesn’t give a shit…
1-9-04: What if none of this matters? I mean really. Does anyone really care? Aren’t we always holding back a part of ourselves because we don’t want to destroy the illusions others have of U? Then it’s like if they knew who we really were they’d feel they didn’t know…
12-16-03: Pres. Bush says he prays to God for wisdom, strength and guidance. I guess that’s all any of us should ask or expect from God. He’s not there to do us favors. Not in any tangible way. You think about the accident and you ask why. But you’ll never…
11/14/03: No one really wants to listen to me. No one’s really interested in me. In the mornings I wish I had someone to talk to. Just sit and talk over coffee. But I can’t even think of anyone who’s available. Most of my friends work. Or they’re not really…
