If I Were Free
What if I were free and on my own?
I could be me but I’d be alone.
A thirty-year marriage I threw down the drain.
If I was asked I’d simply claim:
He’s a great guy, loyal and true.
No, I don’t think I’m a heartless shrew.
Now that’s he’s gone my heart can sing.
I got a good price when I pawned my ring.
I gave up the house and a life of ease.
The kids don’t get it; they say, “Mom, can’t you please?”
But I’ve been there and done that and I’m leaving now.
Take care of the cat while I ignore my vow.
As I wave goodbye I think should I have stayed?
The road ahead isn’t smoothly paved.
If I leave now what will I miss?
Not that nightly perfunctory kiss.
I won’t think about what I left behind.
I’ll look forward to all the good things I’ll find.
If I came back, on the door I’d knock.
What was I thinking? You’re my rock.
Give me a hug and let’s call it a day.
What made you think I wouldn’t stay?
By Barbara Meyers ©2009
More every day poetry for my loyal followers. I found If I Were Free in a journal while searching for something else. I don’t remember writing it, but there it was. Something I scribbled without a lot of thought or time. I barely edited it before posting. Even though I don’t usually share an entire work, today I am, just for you. It’s hardly a polished piece, but it does sort of convey where I must have been at that point in time.
Marriage is not for the faint of heart. Don’t let anyone convince you otherwise. Show me anyone who’s stuck it out and I guarantee they’ve been through their share of ups and downs.
One of these days I’ll put all of my amateurish poems in a book entitled “Everyday Poetry” and sell a digital version for 99 cents. Probably not worth that, but that’s the lowest price I think you’re allowed on most sites. I’m sure not giving them away for free. Except to my blog readers!